Saturday, September 28, 2019

Cats in the Cradle -Life Failed

This song always resonated with me as a child.  I swore to myself I would work hard in my early years to be there for my children in their older years.  The words of this song just make me cry knowing I didn't accomplish my goal to be there as much as I wanted to be for my children.

God I hope and I pray I teach them and develop them to be a better parent than I was for them.  That family and time is more important than a job and/or career EVER will be. 

My child arrived just the other day
He came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch, and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
And he was talking 'fore I knew it, and as he grew
He'd say "I'm gonna be like you, dad"
"You know I'm gonna be like you"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man in the moon
"When you coming home, dad?" "I don't know when"
But we'll get together then
You know we'll have a good time then

My son turned ten just the other day
He said, thanks for the ball, dad, come on let's play
Can you teach me to throw, I said, not today
I got a lot to do, he said, that's okay
And he walked away, but his smile never dimmed
It said, I'm gonna be like him, yeah
You know I'm gonna be like him

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man in the moon
"When you coming home, dad?" "I don't know when"
But we'll get together then
You know we'll have a good time then

Well, he came from college just the other day
So much like a man I just had to say
Son, I'm proud of you, can you sit for a while?
He shook his head, and he said with a smile
What I'd really like, dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later, can I have them please?

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man in the moon
"When you coming home, son?" "I don't know when"
But we'll get together then, dad
You know we'll have a good time then

I've long since retired and my son's moved away
I called him up just the other day
I said, I'd like to see you if you don't mind
He said, I'd love to, dad, if I could find the time
You see, my new job's a hassle, and the kids have the flu
But it's sure nice talking to you, dad
It's been sure nice talking to you
And as I hung up the phone, it occurred to me
He'd grown up just like me
My boy was just like me

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man in the moon
"When you coming home, son?" "I don't know when"
But we'll get together then, dad
We're gonna have a good time then

Saturday, August 24, 2019

Seek First HIS Kingdom

But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33 NKJV https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/mat.6.33/5765

Monday, May 27, 2019

Romantic

Just watched Valentine's Day.  It's a chick flick from like 2010.  I like Rom-Coms.  I'm a romantic.  I like romance.  I love the joy romance brings to a partner.  I love the joy I feel pleasing others.  I love intimacy. I love the spontaneity.  I love the rush.  I love being able to surprise them with a token of love and the reward when it is reciprocated.  I love seduction.  I love intellectual conversation.  I find it stimulating.  I love the mind.  I love a good mind fuck.  I guess my mind is always searching for the next way to romance, seduce, pleasure, stimulate and love...

I confess all of this because I guess I'm conflicted.  When my partner does not like romance, intimacy or seduction (giving or receiving) I feel neglected.  Neglected in my own pleasure, but more neglected in my desire to pleasure another.

My conflict resides in my Faith in Jesus.  Am I being selfish in my personal pleasure and not focused enough of God's will for me?  Am I not focused enough on the absolute Joy I can and will receive from Jesus?  Or do I just want that physical, mental satisfaction from a human being? 

God clearly wants me to be with my partner who absolutely has a polar opposite perspective on any romantic/intimacy scale.  It has been said, "opposites attract.". When does the attraction begin?  IDK.